22nd Dec, NINE MORE DAYS remaining...
Yesternight Monalisa ba called. Even, her daughter Miji had suffered from a sudden bout of food poisoning on the same day of my wifes tonsilitis. Is the comets tail purging itself before it commences on its new paths? Yesterday, I brought "Aspects of the masculine" by Carl Jung home and pored over it. Some thing i read there struck me:
"The apparent enmity of the Mother archetype to the Hero is merely a ruse on the part of Mater Natura for SPURNING On her favored child (the Hero) to his highest achievement.."
also, Nietzsches ode to Zarathustra;
" Bent double, Working in thine own pit, Encaved within YOURSELF, burrowing into THYSELF, A coprpse- Piled with a Hundred Burdens, LOADED TO DEATH WITH THYSELF, a knower! Self knower. The wise Zarathustra, you sought the heaviest burden and found yourself.."

so in the same spirit i contemplate, isnt the Comets tail doing the SAME with us. by testing us with obstacles, isnt it bringing out hidden qualities in our own selves? if not for the long runs of exile, trying circumstnaces would we have been so alive, alert, awake to our responsibilities and capabilities?? i dont think so. Like Jung says, Comets Tail has acted like Mater Natura, spurning us, FAVOURED children on a different path.. towards wakefulness..!
IF IT WASNT FOR MY WIFES ILLNESS.. would i have bothered to stay holed up here and pore in detail over the works of Carl Gustav jung?
If it wasnt for exile etc, would I have bothered to create a programme like Comets tail? i DONT think so!! hence its the desugn of Mater Natura/ Comets tail in creating circumstances for highest self exploration in all of us, highest thinking, awareness, introspection, contemplation..

... and those of us "BLESSED" with conflict/ contradiction/ turmoil/ rupture during this period have succeeded in waking out of their ILLUSIONARY comfort zones.. Amen!

Adim - you have helped so much - putting things in perspective thanks to project comet's tail. THANK YOU.
nothing is a coincidence - we haven't even met for years - yet because of you this confusing frustrating time has made some sense.
the greatest change i am feeling is within me - i know that this month has signified the end of one life for me. and is the beginning of a new life. remember - i told you that i feel i'm living many lives in this one life. i had become too used to my last life. perhaps a little afraid to fight anymore, even. you had told me examine my past - i did. and there is one astonishing pattern. everytime before a major change, i have spent around 2 years in "deep freeze" - doing nothing significant, letting things be - a downslide that has seen me failing in things i do the best - for i just did not care enough. and "deep freeze" is also accompanied by deep personal trauma - change in relationships, friendships - understanding relationships in a new light . . . the maya kind of wearing off I guess.
well this is THAT time of my life yet once again. as you rightly said, only when we look back later will we realise the significance of this time in our lives. I can feel it in my bones - i think i managed to catch the small window of opportunity - the opportunity of change. I think by nature I seek change, far more than most people I know. It is a leap of faith. . . not that things look clear right now. but with time, in 5-6 months from now they will be cearer. for now all i have ahead is a time of learning - or perhaps - re-learning. starting from scratch, discovery, lots and lots of hard work, re-inventing myself - and mostly preparing myself for a future of my own choice of my own making.
the crossroad where destiny allows us to make our own choices - and to live with the consequences thereof.
out of my comfort zone. . . into the unknown cold.
thanks, guys, for holding my hand through it.

mon 22nd Dec Shortest day..was yesterday..so days will be getting longer from now..
Looking at project comet tail..snce sep..keep in on comets tail..my graph hasn't moved much. But since I was suppose to be at it and give my all or miss the tail I have been giving more efforts than b4, but haven't seen any progress..only thing is have been holding back on the temper issue..many a times Adim had advised to cool my heels for a few days as things are not in the best time right now to blow steam..thanks to that I have been calmer than i would have otherwise been..but other than that ..nothing is happening..hope and wish it gets better...Lifes stuck in second gear..need to shift gears and move...I was always a fast lane driver now I am stuck...

25th dec morn...another 5 days to go.....waiting still waiting...
where is everyone?????

hi nandini . . . we seem to be the last ones left. feel like i'm in a disaster movie.... in more ways than one. but like in every disaster movie, i seem to be discovering things in myself that i did not know i had. which is always a good thing... and discovering things about others around me, which is not always a good thing.

hope u had a good christmas.

happy new year, to you and everyone else. in case i don't come around here before that.

hope the comet's tail exits with some good for all of us.

Nandini...i completely understand and feel when you say "Life is stuck in second gear", but soon things will get going and you will be in top gear. I say this from experience; remember the discussion from sometime back wherein I would moan about not finding the right lane to cut into. My engines are stalling and gas is running dangerously low.

Nilanjana congratulations on forcing yourself to take this major step and forcing yourself to do what u felt is right rather than just going with something that was easy and complacent. It is really admirable and how I wish each one of us who are part of this comet’s tail find the strength in our own little way to achieve what you have.

I wish you and all the others in this project all the very best in the times ahead of us.

well made some changes..small ones like i mentioned b4, i for one need change for sure, so does my hubby..so we went ahead and got new stuff for our room, just to change the looks..and then I got a new hair cut..to make sure the face looking at me every morning is a bit diff then the one I am so used to :). Got a new pocket book to start the new year..maybe that will bring more money hahahah..and today been shopping since 7am after christmas..now I am dead tired..but we needed to do this...

At the fag end of the tail..
Nilanjana, you wrote:
"and there is one astonishing pattern. everytime before a major change, i have spent around 2 years in "deep freeze" - doing nothing significant, letting things be - a downslide that has seen me failing in things i do the best - for i just did not care enough."

A LOG BOOK FROM THE PAST...
As you said nothing is Coincidence during comets tail. Three days back I found a sketchbook journal from 1998. During the Thesis time of my five years in architecture. A very trying time indeed. Later I had found this lost sketchbook again in 2005 (a cousin brought it from my hostel in Mumbai, years later after I had left the city in 2001). This time this half empty sketchbook find me drawing, entering stuff just before I was entering an important conecture in life..getting married and entered some notes.
Again I rediscovered this sketchbook amidst a pile of note books three days back.. in the last few days of comets tail. AND FINDING THIS SKETCHBOOK IN THIS SIGNIFICANT HOUR revealed lot about the signficant nature of Comets tail for me.......

COMETS TAIL: WRAPPING UP
Finding the sketchbook, I updated the entire LAST TEN YEARS in a brief fashion. And once i completed this arduous task I found that 207 and 2008 were comparatively the most freozen, eventless years for me. Especially the ENTIRE 2008 i spent in exile, frozen in an inertial drag of void, AND EVENTLESSNESS! I might have had bad years and good years BUT 2008 was one year I didnt care much and let it all go DOWNSLIDE. Was a period of restful gestation without END...
Nilanjana, as you mentioned above, before a major change comes you go into TWO YEARS OF eventless downslide. I found it very true of me two, especially after updating the entire LAST TEN YEARS in the empty spaces of this sketchbook. The emptiness of its pages were PRE-destined to BE filled up .. ONLY NOW!!
What piques me most, not only I alone, but for a LOT of us, 2008 was a year of great exile. Reflecting the EXACT sentim,ents of one of my lifelong favourite books.. "The Dangling Man- by Saul Bellow". And the role of COMETS TAIL was/ is wrapping up of this huge era. For me its coming to the end of a LONG TEN YEAR OLD CYCLE!! Comets Tail has been huge for me! In the last few days (as I've written before) Iwas exiled in my in laws place with Tonsilitis infected Sangeeta and a copy of Carl Jung's "aspects of the Masculine". Which made be discover that:
for a lot of people the simple transition from college/ learning to acreer/ independence is a LONG WINDING AND TORMENTED PHASE. Im the perfect candidate whose tranisition from learning to earning has been a TEN YEAR LONG ODYSSEY OF TRIALS, TRIBULATIONS, CHANGES. And Comets Tail was a CRUCIAL period which saw me wrapping quite a bit of this LONG Ten year transitional interphase.

At the end I'll give my ever favourite dialogue: When I started/ commenced Comets Tail I never thouight it ran that DEEP or it was THAT HUGE. Reading the first post NOW, I had no idea/ clue what DEEP WATERS I was entering into. I hope its been that intense for you guys too...

IMPORTANT NOTICE/ UPDATE FOR TAIL RIDERS: EXTENSION OF 3 DAYS!!

1) Comets Tail wont Conclude on 31st Dec BUT on the 3rd of Jan, Saturday. This is in light of the accurate data update regarding Saturn transition in Leo. Saturn will turn Retrograde ONLY ON 3rd Jan and not 31st Dec.

2) This difference of three days will have NO import to some members, but to some it may haver huge import. Personally, for me at the Fag End of a 3.5 long ODYSSEY, it doesnt make ANY difference whether its last 3 days or last six days...(at least thats what I think..)..but
THERES A LOT OF STING in the tail.. A lot of events have happened for a lot of members ONLY in the fag end of the tail, so extension fo of 3 dayss might or might not make difference!

3) I want to officialy congratulate memeber Sadashiv Mallya for the successful completion/ closure of his MAIN issue in the tail journey. Due to privacy reasons I cannot describe its details but I can say that much HONESTLY, that,.. out of the most UNEXPECTED, UNPROMISING, UNINSPIRING member came the most dazzling achievement, feat of pure Karmic closure. After WHAT Sadashiv has achieved ( his underlying root issue), I can safely quote Metallica's song " Nothing Else Matters". And offline, behind the pages of Comets tail, on phone, chat, etc his issue has been most personally demanding, draining, exhausting on me! But at the end of the day I never expected that such an UNEXPECTED finish!! Like Dark Horse who suddenly picks up speed anfrom the far behind ranks to end up an winner! Congrats!! Such is the miracle of the tail, such is the sting left in th tail..!
4) And in light of sadashivs development I want to sadly add:
For those members who had achieved very EARLY closure in comets Tail..well, that was pretty much an illusion. As in the coming year ahead, you will find theres a lot more to resolve, cross, learn, re learn etc. But then thats out of the scope of Comets Tail. Sadly, I wish you guys had stuck closely to the last two months of the Tail. There only, you might have found thev real clues. For the sting of the comet is in its.. TAIL!! My prayers and God Bless!

Also on Sadashiv's note, I want to add (as I told him on the phone).. we're at an end of a loooong journey. What we all have been through, has been a wind up, build up of years and years. Just hope, we all find some Closure in the times to come, where we can all look back with awe and wonder at the passing, limited and significant period.. of Comets Tail...

Also, members feel free, to call me up on my temporary number: 98646 28880 at guwahati. Last six days..."enjoy". Ha ha! Today Im feeling very unloaded, relaxed after writing the last two LOOONG, heavy posts.. #308 & #309. A backache i was having seemes to miraculosly dissolved after I unloaded these last two long posts..!May Lord Saturn guide us all.

last few days has been quiet hectic..but it has been mostly soclializing and fun stuff, so not complaining. 24th latenight party, 25th slept in, 26th started as early as 6.30 am and was out till 10.00pm and then on 27th woke up late and then had to go to bday party for Mehr in the afternoon, and then when I got back home Jasi was like, lets have ppl over for dinner, holiday season is getting over..so impromto dinner party..Rush cleaning of the house, and then cooking..it is amazing how fast I can clean when I have a dead line..lol!! had dinner for 15 ppl it was a fun evening hanging out with freinds and food .till 2am in the morning..then 28th morning woke up at 10am kids and all then we had to rush out as we had another Bday party at the bowling alley..now we are home resting up for monday, Jasi is going back to work tom'row to get ahead and set some things he had been planning..then we have our new years party..on 31st, lunch at our house then we all are going out for the eveing..fun and gala..I am surely having a blast..so are the kids.. lets see what New Year brings..then I have to get ready for our cousins visit for 2 weeks..looking forward to that as we dont get too many relatives to visit us..

Wow, Nandini, you surely have a packed schedule ahead!! Todays my nieces birthday so we are preparing, shopping, arranging since yesterday. Sis has called quite a number of people, so its somewhat big scaled. I took a brief gap from all the activity to rush into the nearest cybercafe to update Comets Tail.
LAST SIX DAYS..
The last 6 days of comets tail are ahead of us: 29th, 30th, 31st, then 1st, 2nd, 3rd. The conjecture of such a long winding odyssey concluding on the zenith of Holiday Season, new years is itself noticeable. If it had ended on some relatively empty space, then ALL OUR ATTENTIONS WOULD HAVE BEEN FOCUSSED ON IT!! However, since its concluding NOW, hence MOST OF US are distracted, diverted by other engriossing events. I cannot but help notice this strategic timing. On top of that, today Sangeetas sis and bro in law are arriving from UK. So the pile up of events is un ignorable. HOWEVER, amidst all that, I/ we should use the last days for pursuing our now difficult of self investigation, introspection, and retrospection.
For me, as Saturn speed considerably slows down , I already feel the comet has ended! But I want to see this long odyssey through till the end.

I feel so strange that such a personal, narrow, solitary run as Comets tail is ending amidst such uncharacteristic public interaction, hustle bustle and festivity. As usual, i urge all members to write these last few days of the tail. Later we wil have lot of time in our futures to look back at the significance of thuis passing period.

I spent uploading excerpts and important posts from last three months of projects comets tail on my blog: adimachine.blogspot.com
under the title "projects comets tail archives"... I did it in extreme haste, but for the fact iof historicity and archiving! in one & half hour.. whew!!

Admist all social interaction, I am still pursuing my project..the never ending quest..still nothing..lets see when it ends...every day almost.

29th evening another unplanned dinner party..at about 3pm i was so tired that i needed a nap and Jasi calls me to let me know we'll be having ppl over for dinner.. hmmm not the best time to let me know..specially with 3 kids...I need a lot more warning time..if u know what i mean..cooking is not the problem..it is getting the house in shape..as one can imagine w/ 3 toddlers..it is usually a playground all thru..so what i do is..take my much needed nap, or else I would have killed somebody!!! and Phew the kids cooperated or did I scare them into napping??? not sure, but they did!! so we all napped, then I was like a rabbit on caffine..cooked cooked and cleaned and man did I use child labor to the max or what..got the house cleaned up by the kids mostly..then Mehr my 3 and half daughter was very happy to dust the dining table too, so I gave in ( sure!! as if, I had time to do that) but got the house cleaned, some cooking done and then Jasi gets back from work to help finish up cleaning some more..oh well all was done and in good time..had a nice dinner butter chicken, mustard fish, aloo matar and usual side orders..appetizers were all semi ready made, so my efforts were bare min, just warmed them on the oven..So all might be wondering why am I writing all this.? I guess i just wanted to write it down ..and maybe I am not in the zone anymore where my kids were considered babies and i was not able to entertain ppl at the drop of a hat. I guess I am back!! but I don't think so..I can do things, but I don't want to..i already have to much on my plate ..well only time will tell, which way i want to swing, to entertain or not !!!

Nandini, you wrote:
"then I was like a rabbit on caffine..cooked cooked and cleaned and man did I use child labor to the max or what.."
sounds somewhat like my yesterday 29th dec, my niece angels 5th birthday. my sister had invited 176 guests. it was like a small marriage. only more chaotic with rampant kids running all over the place, popping baloons, upsetting chairs etc..!
Since morning we were shopping for vegetables, groceries, paneer, etc etc and mutton..18 kgs of it.. two whole goats and a half!! (bird flu here, so no chicken).. and so expensive!! one hour and ten minutes i stood at the butchers watching two entire goats getting slaughtered, skinned, claened purged and chopped into mutton pieces. after entertaining guests as late as 10.30 in the night from 4 o clock i crashed. whole day i consumed A GREAT AMOUNT OF CHOCOLATE BARS.. which kept me active, energetic, and fully manageable to the level of kids energy.
WHAT SURPRISES ME IMMENSELY IS THAT YOU HANDLE THREE FULLY ACTIVE, ENERGETIC KIDS EVERY DAY!!!!!! For you its a DAILY AFFAIR!!
And after the narration of your yesterdays response to the on the drop of a hat party.. well..I THINK you have an INCREDIBLE LEVEL OF ENERGY!! You are the Jupiter DYNAMO of Comets Tail. And it took me the fag end of comets tail and my nieces birthday to REALIZE THAT!!

My prayer to Authority in charge of Comets tail is that he blesses you one day with a professional engagement that does JUSTICE to the HIGH level of energy you casually engage in. For you my prayer/ wish is one of EnRgy/ Fire. Amen!

Also as a addition to the post above I realised:
Each member of Comets Tail is UNIQUE in one particular area, especially gifted in one department! Has the GUNA (quality) of one particular planetary element. ALL WE NEED IS APPROPIATION/ UTILISATION of our UNIQUE gifts/ talents!!
Unknowingly we have almost gathered like a band of random Mutants ( like in X men). All we need is nature, Mater Matura to TAP our UNIQUE skills...

Also I realise, (black in white theory),:
OUR DISADVANTAGES/ LIMITATIONS/ WEAKNESSES ARE ULTIMATELY OUR SOURCES OF REAL STRENTGH, OUR REAL GIFTS..!!
ALSO, conversely our so called "strengths" are our rfeal WEAKNESSES..

I pray that we manage find our REAL gifts within..!!!

Also,
as i was writing this last post, my sis in laws hubby, Anand gifted me with a science fiction book: MATTER - Iain M. Banks. Its been soooo long since I read any work of fiction. Once I was such an AVID s.f. buff and read so much fiction. The last book fiction I bought was Entire Collected works of my eternally favourite writer Edgar Allan Poe.
Though i will have the opportunity to read MATTER later, it gifted to me while writing about Comets Tail is obviously significant. That I will definitely update later, once I get to reading it.

I HOPE all members HAVE MAINTAINED their PERSONAL POSTS ( as i asked to in the FIRST post of cpmets tail). Why?
Because many seeds sown during this especial;ly significant period will bear FRUIT after the period concludes merely four days later!!
Only uncertainity is which seed WOULD harvest and which one wouldnt..and in what way..!!

Wow Adim.That sure was some Bday party..my wishes to Angel too..wishing her a Healthy and very Happy life ahead. I bet she had a fun day yesterday.

And u did quiet a job getting my appetite going with mutton and all ..yum yum..don't get to eat mutton here, only once in a blue moon..and thanks for your prayers..as God doesn't listen to me...if he is there, he is not too happy w/ me prolly as I am a nastic..so hopefully he will hear urs :)

as for me, I am still at it, this afternoon..looking searching ...it is one full force...

LAST DAY OF 2008
31st Dec, 2008!
Todays the last day in a year that was overally stagnant, uninspiring, half boiled, eventless, insipid, for me. I WONT say "Hopefully" 209 is better. I am done with Hope and all that! What has to transpire shall, despite my hopes, and secvret yearnings, nonetheless. 2008 was a bad, bad, bad in the ENTIRE decade cycle from 1998- 2008!! I rewalised this while updating my log/sketch book from the past.
Today we had gone with Sangeetas entire family, her sis a& bro in law from UK, huge gang on my father in laws arranged prgramme of picnic on the Sandy Chandrapur banks of river Brahmaputra. Large Sand islands form during winter amidst the river. Picninc in such is Assamese tradition, but today I went after a loooong time.
Sangeetas bro's father in law is a Member of Parliament. As usual we exchanged lots of astrological notes on changing times, trends, strategies etc. As usual he gave me advice to immerse myself in some solid career instead of whiling away my time randomly. I agreed for once, because I feel thats what is bound to happen in the near future. Ill get into a Architectural job and start off instead opf randomly/ vaguely freelancing which involves being on and OFF work for loong periods of time. Im writing this because this discussion happening on the sandy island amidst Brahmaputra might have consequences tomorrow. His advice, and lead might lead to something, or mightnt. My job is simply to sincerely catlaogue/ note down.
MEANWHILE: Sangeeta called from Delhi. Our friends Lueit, Neha are in deep crisis. Their shifting to Guwahati might be delayed by sometime. It will happen AFTER 3rd Jan.. OUTSIDE the scope of Comet Tail!
Since last Ten days, Luiet had fever which develope into Typhoid, then some other mode. Now hes hospitalised with Malaria since Monday. They are going through rupturous and traumatic during their MAJOR shift! Comet caused them to offset/delay their shifting OUTSIDE comets tail. Another branch of alternate destiny has been created for them. We can only find in the times to come, what form this difference creates!
During the ending/ wrapping up days of the Tail, I find every day bring UNEXPECTED LAST MINUTE offsets, delays, twists, tangets, alterations & modifications. Only in the future would we find meaning regarding this patterrns, changes of track.
Yesternight (30th dec) we were invited by Sangeetas relative Sana da. There, I HAD NON VEG IN MY DELICATE CONDITION. whole night i WAS UP WITH GAS, INDIGESTION. I would have definitely cnot gone on todays Brahamputra picninc by boat. But at last minute I felt slightly better and went with my Mum. All these last minute twists, turns, shifts etc.
The TWIST of the Comets Tale is more in its .. TAIL..!!

A TALE TWISTS
Also I was tarvelling from river Bank after picninc with my mom bak home. a friend Santu called, so I got off at me friend Hridoys palce who wasnt there but was coming in a while. I took the brief time for them to arrive to enter a cyber cafe and UPDATE these last minute happenings of today.
Several consecutive TWISTS have juxtaposed, CONJOINED in succession to have found me sitting here an updating about Comet Tail. On the last day of 2008! BUT three more days still for Comets Tail itself to end....

Happy New Year to All in Comets Tail!!

Picnic brings such good memories back, we used to go for our new year picnic in Dibrigarh and then in Nowgong...to Hatimuria..on top of the hillock there was the irrigation departments Guest House, we used all band their and spend the whole day and night there and then come back the next day...It is snowing here, I had plans to go to NY early in the morn, with a freind while our kids slept, but snow made us cancel our plans..Jasi is out ploughing snow..we are inside enjoying the scene :) hmmm and kids watching daddy plough away ..poor dad..needs some nice hot Chai when he gets in. well this is usual for us, and then we have our night party plan, getting geared up for that...Woho!! Happy New Year every body..change or not, hope you all have a Glorious, and prosperous year ahead, at least we can all hope and have one...

New Year Blasts
"Happy"New year 2009!
As write this by 7:15 pm from a cyber cafe, there were THREE BLASTS in Gwhy today around 3- 4 pm. One in Bahnga garh, in Birubari and Bhootnath. I discussed with neighbours. still decide to come out to friend Hridoys place in Goswami service. The streets were busy, bustling, all shops open. PEOPLE HAD BECOME IMMUNE to BLASTS!!
My friend Hridoy, associated with Comets Tail, though offline through phone wou;d like to add:
" One of my fav recent films is Rocky Balboa, the Sixth Rocky Sequel. In the last round Rocky emerges from near knockout to fight again. He says "The abilioty to survive comes NOT from how hard you can hit, BUT, how hard you can knocked down , and STILL recover fro one more round" This is basis of the survival of the human species..! Amen"
Thanks Hrridoy! I agree, its our resilience despit everything that sees us through hell and highwater!!

Happy New Year 2009 to all my fellow comet mates…may all of us find renewed strength to stay the course.

The past few days have been really uplifting for me. A couple of old friends visited and we just hung out and chilled not thinking about any negative issues. Felt a sense of renewed hope and belief at the end of their visit. Maybe this was overdue and has helped me look at things with a new perspective. I have decided that instead of waiting for things to happen I am going to be the ACT and the ACTION. I am not going to worry about what will happen tomorrow and do things or create happenstance as if there is no tomorrow.

If I fail, I failed trying….i will be happy knowing that I left no room for WHAT IF. Hate that phrase. As I commence this unknown journey the comets tail period will always hold a special place in my heart, soul and mind ….never to be forgotten or taken for granted.

Adim has been my Alfred (character from Batman Begins) in this journey and has always reminded me “WHY DO WE FALL MASTER WAYNE? SO THAT WE CAN LEARN TO PICK OURSELVES UP STRONGER EACH TIME”. To which he would be questioned “YOU STILL HAVEN’T GIVEN UP ON ME, HAVE YOU?.....NEVER” was what I heard along with “JUST STAY THE COURSE”

On the SECOND LAST DAY of Comets Tail, I'm drained. Its been one loong odyssey for me. Theres not much I have to say while it wraps up totally except' like Sadashiv said in the post above:
" If I fail, I failed trying….i will be happy knowing that I left no room for WHAT IF"
Henceforth, its anyways going to be IMPOSSIBLE to stay in suspension or stay unaffected by the tides of change. As I type this out I feel somewhat vacant, void, emptiness. Last few posts I mostly wrote from cybercafes opposite Silpukhuri and around Goswami service. Tomorrow when I return to Delhi, the RESIDUE of Adim-14's reflections will have the smell of the dust of these Silpukhuri roads. When I BEGAN Comets Tail, it was in such different location/ space ( home alone at GK II, Delhi). And today this shift, displacement has changed so many points of view. So many different faces of exile, have I seen in these last few months, or maybe these last TEN years, or maybe the etire life. This was such a loong wrap up. And now, there are only 30 hrs left. What much can I speak of? At the ultimate fag end of it all.
I AM MERELY SATISFIED THAT I HAVE DETAIL JOURNALS OF THIS ENTIRE STRETCH, DETAILS OF EVERY DAY. So tomorrow I can REFER back and reflect upon the seed sown in this period, and what plants would they yield in the futures to come....

Also a frail hand at some medieval verse from yours truly:

Comets tail, Comets Tail..
Doesnt matter if we "succeed" or "fail"..
after all we're on the comets track, its.. TRAIL
Quite close to the Holy Grail.

I know there was some past life reason
for the last ten years of exiles season
but I hope, now, in the coming days ahead
the purpose of my existence is relayed
the "why" of my being here is revealed
and the suspension upon me is finally released..

Today, as i write a 3rd post, I actually feel the scope of Comets Tail coming to an end. A cycle is coming to and end, and another beginning....

one more day to go...nothing out of the ordinary happening here. Things have happened to ppl around me, mostly bad. Some good things also. but not in the magnitude to define it as comets tail. Maybe later it will have some significance...life is as usual..chuga chuga choo choo...

THE LAST DAY OF COMETS TAIL...

Yesternight Sadashiv called twice reporting some uncanny coincidences. Signs out the blue. Basically regarding Vishnu and Shanidev (saturn). Since the day of my Nadi revelation, lord Vishnu has made an appearance into my experience of things. So in the seemingly inconclusiveness of Comets Tail, there were some major conclusions regarding the confirmation of my ever worshipped Lord Shanidev and Election of Lord Vishnu as my principal deity. The latter caused me quite a strange shift as before that for years I was worshipping Godess Dhumavati (the cosmic widow, also known as Nriti or Alaxmi), I also used to worshipped Brahma, Lord Ganesha and Bhairava. Somehow Lord Vishnu never fit in the scheme of things except for invocation of his first Avatara : Matsyavatara. But gradually, since sometime the gradual appearance of Narayana i.e Lord Vishnu began manifesting in my life. COMPARE THIS TO CHANGE OF OPERATING SYSTEMS IN YOUR PC. The programmes are the same, but you have changed from Unix to Mac or Windows or whatever.

In light of yesternights coincidences/ events reported by Sadashiv, I can thereby say that at least for us, Election of Saturn and Vishnu as our leading deities was the predestined goal of Comets Tail.

THE CONCEPTIONS OF VISHNU:
Cyclicity, cycles of the universe, transformation of energies into countless forms, Nietzsches postulate of eternal return, energy is constantly being transformed at every instance of your life, YOU are constantly getting transformed, changed. Vishnu's Sudarshan Chakra represents the cyclicity of planets, time, concentric wheels within each other. Though each wheel is constant, because of their different rates of speed the overall patterns are constantly changing. Analogous to the motion of planetary orbits around our Sun. And further to the spiralling of the star systems around the centre of the Milky Way. The wheel of time, destiny, fate cyclicity of the universe are represented by Vishnus Sudarshan Chakra.
And this effects us by waves of events, combinations and patterns in our lives.
And such a vast galactic vision taking place in the LAST DAY of Comets Tail!