If you stumbled across this page because you were seeking comfort because of your own loss of a child, I just want you to know that I am here for you, to talk, to listen, anything. Share your child's story with me, their photos, their personalities, anything. I just want everyone to know that whether you are pregnant and alone, or you are grieving a child, or whatever hardship you are going through, you can, you will, and you have to get through it. I know you don't feel stro...ng, I know you think that you will never be able to smile again, I know that your heart literally feels like it is being ripped into a billion pieces over and over again, trust me, I know. Just, please, don't give up, be kind to yourself, and remind yourself that with time, things get a little easier. Never be afraid to share your story on this page. I want it to be an outlet for anyone experiencing this unimaginable pain. Never give up or let the pain lead you down a destructive path. Use the pain for good and for making the one you lost proud. Just my thoughts as I am missing my Jaxon tonight. Good Night.
I had a dream of my little Jaxon last night. I don't know if it is a good thing or not though, because it was vivid and real. It was me driving a car from Indiana to San Antonio, TX, and I was driving in the air, on top of buildings, and over obstacles because I got a call from a doctor saying he was alive. I got to the hospital and they brought him to me, which was 4 years later in my dream, but he looked only a few months older. He looked so happy to see me and then he transformed into a dog and my urn with his ashes appeared in his place. The happiness i felt in that dream was so blissful, but damn it hurt when I woke up and actually saw my urn next to me. I love you Jaxon!
Merry Christmasto everyone! Especially to my fellow grieving parents. I should be watching a beautiful 4 year old boy open up presents right now. Never hurts any less each year but neither does my love ever weaken. Love u Jaxon! Xoxoxo.
My best friend got a tattoo for Jax for my birthday on Monday and she didn't even realize that she got an elephant that is similar to the ones on his shirt and socks in this pic. That was Jaxon's very first photo shoot at 2 weeks old and so that makes the tattoo even more special I love you Katie
It is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and October 15th is when the wave of light happens to honor the lost babies. I will be lighting a candle for my sweet little Jaxon tonight at 7pm EST. I pray everyone else who has lost a child finds comfort in this and help make the awareness more publicized as other awareness causes often over shadow ours. Thanks to President Reagan for declaring this in 1988!
I will forever cherish this photo. Never say no to taking more pics with ur kids because u think u look fat. One of my regrets now! So little photos with him. Love u Jax!