Sorry that I've been absent for a while. I just want to check in with you! How is everyone? Since my little episodes back in October / November, I've been doing pretty well. The tumor has not returned and I am very grateful for God's grace!
In Psalm 86:7, it says "When I am in distress, I call to you, because you answer me."...
That is some encouragement to you! When we are in distress from any situation, it's easy to forget that God is there and hears us even when we don't know what words to say. I hope this update finds you all well. If you have any prayer requests, as always share.
I’ve seen and heard that today is the anniversary for two different people that found out they had a brain tumor. Both of them are doing well!! I’m thankful for all of you, that we can connect, share stories of victory and struggles, share concerns, and ask and answer questions for each other. Thank you for being here for me and for each other!!
Tomorrow, I have an MRI. I’d like to ask you to pray for me for strength and peace with the outcome. I skipped the MRI back in July, but recent feelings have led me to go get one. Thanks, and you are all in my prayers daily.
The power of prayer!!!!!!
At the school I️ teach at, we submitted our prayers to God on behalf of our friends Earnie and Lori Huff. Earnie had neurosurgery at the same hospital, same surgeon I️ had. It was this morning and it went very well!! Thank you for the prayers! The surgery was shorter than expected with no complications! Praise God!!
Urgent prayer request for friends of ours....
The husband is going through neurosurgery right now at the same hospital I️ was at 6 years ago, with a large aneurysm and an AVM. While it’s not our type of tumor/brain issue, many of us know what neurosurgery is like and his family would covet your prayers. Thanks and love you all.
I thought I’d take time to update.....
I last said I decided to not do an MRI back in July, but I had been having numbness in my arm and foot. Last Saturday, I was having chest pains, nausea, numbness and shortness of breath, so I went to the ER. They did multiple tests and my heart and other organs are fine, but the only test they didn’t do was an MRI. Today, I called my radiologist and set one up for Friday, Dec 1. I covet your prayers! Today, I had pain in my shoulder, s...hortness of breath, numbness, etc in the middle of teaching. I kept going, but something health related is going on in my body.
As you all know I believe, God is faithful, and although a tad scared, I know either way He’s holding me in the palm of His hand. As scripture says, “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment.” 1 John 4:18
Thanks for the prayers. I just thought I’d update. Hopefully, all of you are doing well!
Peace be still. In the storms you’re going through, your creator says peace be still. Stand on solid ground my son/daughter. Hold my hand and I’ll lead you through. We’ll do this together.
You’re not alone!! God sends us people to encourage us and to bring us hope! God has sent me your stories to bless me and encourage me. We’re in this together.
Through it all, through it all, my eyes are on You. Through it all, it is well.
When going through any situation, I know whose I am and that it will be ok. I used to be a planner....planning 3 years, 5 years, 10 years out. Now, I take it one day at a time and try to make every moment count.
I’m sorry I haven’t posted in a while. Here is an update. I just passed my 6 year anniversary of brain surgery on October 25. I’m still tumor free, but have been having minor seizures that the docs say is due to scar tissue. I am not due for an MRI until next July, but have recently been having weakness in my right hand and sometimes arm. I feel blessed beyond belief and know many of you are struggling. I will try to be more in tune to discussion on this page. Don’t... hesitate to message me or post on here!! We are all going through or have been through it before, with varying degrees of complications. For me, there is always the temptation to fear a return of the tumor. I’ve just pushed that aside and am taking things one day at a time, as they come, enjoying my wife and 3 girls, knowing that I’m in God’s hands. Making every day count and knowing whose I am has helped me through!! I’m also enjoying every minute of teaching new classes at the Hamilton High. I love my students! They were a family to my family when we went through they crisis. Know that you are loved and not alone!!! I’m praying for each of you and there is a God that loves you and is holding your hand in the storm!!
Around this time every year, I get my MRI, but last year it was all clear, so my radiologist said I could go 2 years if I wanted. I decided I'm going on faith and waiting until July 2018. With the rising costs of healthcare (an MRI in 2012 cost $244 out of packet and last year it was over $800), that unfortunately helped make my decision. My doctor upped my dosage of anti-seizure recently and it's taking a while for it to settle in. It's a shame that we have to base healthcare decisions on rising costs, but my great physician has me in the palm of His hands, as He does you!! One year without an MRI is not bad. How are each of you doing? Update!! I apologize for not posting in a while. You all are not far from my thoughts and are always in my prayers!!
There are so many broken people out there. I see it and hear it every day. "I just want to disappear." "I'm not good enough for anyone." "No one cares about me" "I'm ugly." "I feel so dirty." "I can't be repaired."
Nothing is further from the truth!
"I see my child; my beloved, a new creation, you're becoming. You see the scars from when you feel; I see the stories they will tell. You see worthless. I see PRICELESS. You see pain, but I see a purpose. You see pain, but I see a... purpose. You see unworthy, undeserving, but I see you through eyes of mercy."
My heart has been overwhelmed with burden for these people, many of whom are some of my students.
If you are feeling like you're worthless, you're not. You're never broken beyond repair. Your scars tell your story!! Some are visible some are not. God may just use your story to save someone's life and give hope!! Speak life over people and not the lies of the enemy.
Today, I was reminded of how people go through stuff and try to put a mask on and pretend they are strong. Some feel they are worthless, cheap, ugly, and come to the conclusion that everyone would be better off if they weren't around anymore. LIES!
The enemy wants to speak lies to you and make you feel these things! But God says different....
He loves you more than you can imagine. He says, you are beautiful, precious, . You were bought for a price....and YOU ARE PRICELESS!!! You are worth far more than any precious jewel. He sees you where you are...cries with you, hurts with you, sees you dressed in white, a rose in bloom....irreplaceable, unmistakeable, incomparable. YOU ARE PRICELESS...DON'T LET THE ENEMY SPEAK LIES!! YOU ARE PRICELESS!!
Sharing your story may help someone else!! No matter what you are going through, God is holding you in the palm of His hand! In my life, there is story after story of God's faithfulness and His presence filling His people with peace and calm in the midst of the storm. I'm prompted to keep sharing my story, so that others may know that he is with me and with them "through all of it".
"I posted this below on my personal page this evening."
Many people ask why I believe so strongly in God when there have been several negative things that have happened to my family and I the past 5 years: the brain tumor, Leah's miscarriage, and then the appendectomy a couple weeks ago. In the hospital, the doctors and nurses talked about how I was "the most calm of anyone coming in for a major surgery that they had seen in the past couple years". Then, at Winter Jam, Tenth ...Avenue North sang this song.
My answer to intellectual people that try to reason out God and come up with a scientific explanation is that "I have this hope in the depths of my soul; that in the flood and the fire, you're with me and you won't let go!" Sometimes, there is no other explanation than "God is and was and always will be"!
I have been there. I've tried to reason out the evidence and all I know is that I had a brain tumor and residual left embedded in my brain post surgery, when they did an MRI. 3 months later, I was having post-op symptoms and the residual tumor was not there!!! The doctors could not scientifically explain it! It was a miracle!!
In 2012, our 3rd little miracle, Abigail "Hope" was born, after my wife had a miscarriage 4 months after my brain surgery. We gave her the middle name "Hope" because of that hope that comes with knowing Christ!! A few months after she was born, we discovered café-au-lait spots on her body and she had some tests done and it turned out that she has a genetic birth disorder called Neurofibromatosis (NF1). NF1 is a disorder where tumors (neurofibromas) can develop on any nerve of her body. Of course there was devastation with that news, but we have this hope!!
In 2014, my wife and I had been praying for an answer from God, wanting an answer as to why? At teen camp, there was an anointing service for the teens and ordained pastors were doing the anointing so as an unordained counselor, I sat back and listened. Without knowing, the evangelist came over and said that God was prompting him to anoint and pray over me. He started praying and I heard an audible voice say "Abigail's mine and she will do great things in My name!!" All I know, is I have this hope!
So, why do I believe that God is real, He's alive, and has carried me through? Why am I at peace and calm in the storm? Because "I have this hope; in the depths of my soul; through the flood and the fire, He's with me and He won't let go!"
"And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts in Christ Jesus..."
- Philippians 4:7
If you are struggling with questions like "Is God real?" or "Why would God care about me?" or "God can't be real because I can't reason Him out".
God is bigger than anything we can fathom!!! He is indescribable!! He cannot and will not fail!!
Update: My stay in the hospital was 24 hours and the tests / monitoring concluded that I'm having minor seizures. I'm having a hard time readjusting my sleep schedule, but I am grateful the issues aren't more serious. Thank you for the prayers and support. How is everyone else?